Letting Go

Some how I became the single person in my group of friends. I don't know what to do, when I go out with them I will always feel like the third wheel. They say that it won't be like that but it already started. The last time i wrote in this I said that I did not fell right in my friend house. I consider why I felt like this for a while and came up with they don't need me right now. We still friends but I won't be going over there for a long while. If they need me they can call me but I going to have to say goodbye for now. It hurts like hell to do this but it feels right. I don't want to be alone and due to the fact that this is the right thing to do I fell more pain now than I felt in a long time. The worst thing about this is I have no one to talk about it,don't you love the irony of it.

Don't fit in

Some times I wonder how I'm friends with my friends. We do have some things in common but i am so different from them. I do not think like them or act like them, I see the world different from them.I was at my friends house the other day just chilling and wondering why am I here. It felt wrong to be there, like i was trying to be someone I'm not. It felt like I was on the outside looking in even though I was in the middle of the room. I just felt so alone. I wish I knew why I feel like this. I just feel like no one gets me, the real me not the person they think I am. I know that people have there views about me some time there right but a lot of time there wrong. I'm not the same person I used to be and most people don't want to see it. I just don't want to feel lonely in a room full of my friends.